You...

11/12/12

I Hate Thinking of You!

I really do. I hate that I think of you. There are many things that I wish to tell you but I can't bring myself to tell you. I can't move on because you are in my head. When I try to think of other guys, I think of you. When I see other couples, I think of you! I want to hate you but I just can't. I love you too much.
I met someone. Someone who is showing a great significant of interest in me. I like him. I think he is nice. But I do not see myself with him for a long time. I have been scarred by you! I wish we never happened. I wish you could have told me a lot sooner that you didn't feel anything for me. I wish that I never met you...and yet...I love you with all my heart that it KILLS me to see you with someone else when you swore to me that I would be the only one in your arms.
I may be overexagerating. I know. But...I can't help how my heart feels. I wish you would just recognize how I feel. How I have felt for a long time now. I hate you but I love you. I want you but I don't want to get back.
I don't know. You have changed so many things about me. I was willing to give up my dream of going to South Korea to visit. I loved you that much. I waited for you to graduate high school because I was a year ahead of you. I learned what patience means. I waited but you did not wait for me. I was willing to do anything if you wanted me to. I followed you blindly because I trusted you. I trusted that what you told me was true. That we would be together.


(sorry, I'ma return to my story after this but I just wanted to get these things out of my mind)